If someone is unemployed and patially disabled wouldn't you think there would be a source for healthcare for that person?  Well there used to be in San Antonio but no more.  I have borderline personality disorder and today I tried the see a doctor so I could get some medicene for it.  I was turned away because of my inability to pay.  I know this means that in a week or so the suicidal thoughts and ideation will come back and I will become increasingly irritable and depressed but there isn't anything I can do about it.  What can I do?  I can't find work that I can do well, and I can't get my SSDI reinstated.  I'm lost and no one really cares.